So today at work I had a very attractive man ask me for my number. Of course we had a conversation at first and he had asked if I had a boyfriend, and even though I don't, my first instinct was to say that I do. Not because I have forgotten that i'm single, but because I didn't feel the want to actually start talking to this guy; even though I have every reason to meet someone new. I was actually going to turn this guy down, and I don't even know why.
I did end up giving him my number after thinking about it for a split second, just because, what harm could it actually do? Maybe my problem is that i'm afraid of commitment. Or maybe i'm completely turned off by dating because of previous failed relationships.
Whatever it is, I sure hope it passes. I don't want to have doubts towards men all my life. I want to WANT to meet new people, not have to convince myself that its okay.
And at the end of the day I still wonder. Why did this guy want MY number? How could I have stood out today? I definitely didn't look my best. My hair was in a beach-waved ponytail, and I was just wearing jeans and a sweater. Yet he still continued to say I was gorgeous. I truly do not understand. I just want to have normal feelings toward dating and relationships sometime soon.